Tuesday, May 27, 2008

Ramblings of a Phat Teacher

There is so much I should be doing right now but I would much rather sit in front of this laptop and ramble on about weightloss issues. Since my eating, excersising and weight consume every ounce of my life, I think it's acceptable to spend a moment blogging about it.

I am excited that I am down 2.5 more lbs. I was scared because Memorial Day felt like a grazing period. Though I didn't eat anything bad I felt so off balance because there was no structure to what time I ate my meals. I realized today that I really rely on having a routine to my eating (as it should be) and that's quite exciting.

My clothes are falling off and I have had to reach into the deep beyond of my closet to find old stuff that I can squeeze into. Here's hoping I don't split any of my old skirts down the middle since they don't offically fit just yet, but it's better than holding my pants up all day with the fear of people seeing my bright maroon undies (yikes!) Speaking of which, even they are loose! I need to hit up a thrift store soon to find some new threads!

I hope you all are doing fabulously! I hope you didn't get too off track with the holiday. Stay focused and press on! If it's a lifestyle change one day isn't going to kill you :-)

Phat Teacher

Tuesday, May 13, 2008

Fat Girl Likes Cute(skinny) Guy Syndrome

Okay, so here is one example of a situation I will not miss once I complete my journey from FAT to FABULOUS: Fat Girl likes Cute(skinny) guy Syndrome. Better known as the all too common FGLC(s)GY. Let me explain, for those of you who call this uncomfortable situation something else:
There is a cute, skinny teacher who I have been crushin' on all year. He and I have carried on some great conversations and I actually thought we were growing closer as colleagues, perhaps friends, perhaps husband and wife (record scratches in background...Whoops! did I type that out loud?) Anyway, I convinced myself that he could possibly entertain the idea of spending time with me (even at this heavy weight) and it is these cunning mental skills that have lead me into a fools paradise, as they say. As the FG(fat girl) who likes the C(s)G I let myself be fooled into doing something for him just to prove to him that I was worthy of his attention. I can't believe this happened too, since I have been doing so well to boost my self confidence. Anyway, I told him I would help him out because he "had to go work on the football team website and it was the only time he could do it." I of course say yes! Why wouldn't I help this delicious specimen? Well today, my kindness (ehem, infatuation) blew up in my face! I found out that he was working on said website with a new teacher....a new, blonde, skinny, and might I had beautiful teacher. I had to do his job so he could go schmooze with some hottie? This is totally FGLC(s)G syndrome! As a FG I am letting myself be used by men who know they will never give me the time of day....but still insist upon wasting my time to go spend time with another (FREAKING SKINNY) woman.

Am I alone here? Do any of you have FG syndrome stories to share? Post a blog about it and let me know so I can read (and smile) and get angry at that cute skinny bastard right along with you!

Ladies, whatever size we are we deserve to be respected and treated equally. So, even though I am 63 lbs away from goal, I am going to start getting my mind right and STOP giving in to any cutie in tight pants and a coaches shirt (we all have our weaknesses). I encourage you to wake up, and recognize that even though you aren't skinny and fabulous, YOU ARE FABULOUS and really, that's the part that counts!!!!!

Remember, I want to hear your stories!
Phat Teacher

Sunday, May 11, 2008

Feeling out of the loop

My weightloss efforts are going well but I can't help but feel a little down today. I worked out hard core then came home and napped and just woke up 3 hours later to a lot of missed calls and missed opportunities to fellowship with my friends. I feel worn out and exhausted but also sad because I am missing dinner with friends and that's something I really wanted to participate in. I am in a blah mood now.

Phat Teacher